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Imagine screaming inside. Screaming inside your mind because you are listening to a person break everything about you down and you can’t figure out if what they are saying is true. You are listening to their point of view but it doesn’t make any sense whatsoever. You asked your significant other why they never show you affection and they are telling you that it is because you keep the house nasty. The immediate response is to wonder what could you do to correct yourself, but then you realize the last time this same conversation occurred your significant other told you the affection was withheld because you concentrated on your career too much plus you didn’t clean up enough. You hired someone to clean the house because you work full-time yourself. This person complains that the agency you hired does a horrible job. You then think about the time before that when your significant other said they were not affectionate because they didn’t like your new hairstyle. It is at that moment that you realize that there will never, ever be a time when you will do enough or be enough. …


What is Happiness?

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Has anyone actually experienced it?

What does it feel like?

Is it only reserved for the chosen ones?

Listening to Al B Sure in the car with your hands blowing through the wind in the backseat on a hot day….

Being outside in the neighborhood doing cheers with your friends until the streetlights come on…

Sitting on the green box eating Dates from the tree while watching the cars go by on the street….

Playing video games all night until you woke up with the controller in your hand the next morning….

Waking up to your dad spinning records for the neighborhood while the neighbors are bouncing to the beat while cutting the…


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Solidarity & Support needed for a 39 year old, AA woman. Woman has children and a significant amount of student loan debt. Not financially responsible not at all. Sometimes you may have to handle everything when she has gotten in trouble for this or that… Makes plenty of mistakes, and even overweight by one hundred or more pounds. Her shape is still in tact however. She has an artsy brain and not the housewife type. She keeps clutter in just about every space she encompasses but she knows where everything is. She can cook but does not cook as much as she should. She is a homebody and a little lazy. She prefers to lie down and watch television or listen to music. She likes to eat but she’s not very adventurous with cuisine. She is from a family of down to Earth people. She didn’t grow up with a silver spoon so her expectations are not that extreme. She will live with you in a shoebox if you treat her right. She has a big mouth. She talks to everyone about everything. She is a natural leader, an activist and her mouth gets her in trouble alot. She wants to save the world and have her voice heard. She is ambitious and not at all submissive. She likes to laugh, and have conversations about music. She listens to music that might be considered weird for a black girl. 80’s new wave. Duran, Duran, Thomas Dolby, Depeche Mode… she is also a Hip Hop head. You will catch her spitting Tribe from time to time. She’s a round the way girl. Very blunt, wears bamboo earrings, chews gum. She wears her hair natural and her face natural. Not a prissy chick. At all. She makes lots and lots of mistakes. She just doesn’t like to wallow in them. She prefers to talk about how to rebound from her mistakes. None are done maliciously. She will hustle hard to make good. She may be down for a little time but guarantee it will not last long. Very loyal. Very, very loyal Loyal to a FAULT. She’s been hurt and she is on guard. Protecting her heart. Her loyalty may not be the same. She has an icebox where her heart used to be. Build trust with her. Don’t break trust. She will forgive but never forget. Woman deals with mental illness. Depression, some anxiety and anger issues. She sees a therapist and will get help but don’t piss her off. She is likely to say anything. Her mouth spits poison. Don’t dish it if you can’t take it. She will be unapologetic about it especially if you have previously broken her trust. Again, she will forgive but certainly will never forget. She’s clingy. Likes to cuddle. Loves affection. Loves cats and coffee. Loves to kiss. If you’re too busy to communicate with her don’t bother. Seriously. She is smart, resourceful, and talented. She loves to make beautiful music and fill the room with music. She has a passion for helping others. She falls to sleep when watching movies. She loves sleep. She has a dark sense of humor. She finds humor in things that make others upset. She is an extroverted, introvert. Her perspective will always be different. She’s not status quo. She’s complex. Can you handle that? …


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Dear Facebook,

I was talked into joining your platform in 2006 by my friends in college. I was not interested at first because I hate following the crowd. I was turned off by the infancy of social media. I tried a site called “College Club” and I met a guy that I found to be…. let’s just say a little touched on that platform so I decided to abstain from chat spaces for a little while. Being the introverted-extrovert I am, it took some convincing to get me to join your platform. Once I joined, I immediately started finding my cousins, uncles, aunties, and many more family members. …


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Being at a crossroads in your life is a very interesting time. Approaching 40 is confusing. Career, relationships, “love”, are all just for the sake of comfort.

Situations happen sometimes to FORCE you to change your trajectory. It is difficult and there are angry moments. Relationships you thought you cherished and people who you thought were in your corner that you had to associate yourself with. You discover that they are “faux”. More “faux” than hair weave. Then what do you do?

You’re alone, you are lonely, very….

You question whether to enter relationships again. What for? For more “faux” individuals to enter your life and play pretend? …


Sometimes it takes a heartbreak to shake us awake and help us see we are worth so much more than we’re settling for. -Mandy Hale

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Concentration is to Tears that Flow

Flow due to what was supposed to be and what wasn’t and probably isn’t, I wish this would all blow

Away but Dreams of Utopia, what could be, what should be, but never was

Control

To not control is to fold

Fold into the element of

Surprise

The element of surprise is a way to get a rise

GOTCHA is the way

To demean is To abuse is To hold in is To be hostile is To…


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I roll over every night probably about every two hours checking my email on my phone. I get up to go use it, get right back in the bed to check my email. It’s 4 a.m. I have to get up in a few hours anyway so I start searching LinkedIn & Indeed to see what new potentials have been posted. I apply to anything remotely close to my skill set that doesn’t require a long drawn out application asking for my life story and what I ate for dinner the last two years. Then I move on to the ones that match my skill set that do ask for those things and I reluctantly complete them. God I know my references are tired of me sending them these forms for them to complete…. I’m tired of sending them. …


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https://phillys7thward.org/2017/11/50-years-ago-students-said-no-racist-policies-walked-schools/

In the Metro Atlanta area, the hiring practices of school districts can be very segregated. One African American teacher decided to pursue his degree in counseling and ended up interning on the wrong side of the tracks. During his internship he dealt with various microaggressions as well as a lack of culturally responsive school counseling that left him feeling like he failed children.

The educator was interviewed on September 25th at around 2:46 pm. For the sake of this article and of course fear of retribution, this educator has chosen to remain anonymous. See: Administrators, Stop Bullying Teachers for more information on this fear of retribution teachers often experience. For the sake of this article let’s call him “Anthony”. …


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September 23rd, 2020 at 1:30pm., it was further reinforced that here in America, drywall means more than the life of a black woman.

New hashtag #drywalllivesmatter

It was a black man that stood up on National Television and continued to further drive the stake in our hearts. He stood there in his dark blue suit and tie, using his best surfer voice without even a hint of pain regarding the death of an innocent, black woman. He stood there with a straight face to yet again, remind black people that their lives do not matter. BUT WAIT! We are charging one of the officers for shooting through the apartment next door as he “could” have killed the family in there. No charges for the woman that was shot 6 times and left to die in her hallway. They won’t confirm that the bullets that killed Taylor came from one of the officers guns. …


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Who is that girl? She didn’t want to be a troublemaker she actually was a people pleaser she didn’t want no whippings or to go to hell. She actually wanted everyone to like her. She started noticing as early as Kindergarten that some kids liked her and some didn’t and they were mean. They picked on her for her always snotty nose and that she always wore dresses and couldn’t wear pants. She didn’t understand. She doubted herself constantly. She cried ALOT, some may even call her a crybaby. She was very, very sensitive and had no idea how to hide her vulnerability. Many girls knew about. things she didn’t, she was on the fence on whether she actually wanted to know or not — she would rather be sheltered. She was a dreamer. She dreamed of being in other places, other countries and around exotic animals. …

About

Jammie Phillips Ed.S

A loud mouth, sometimes Educator, an advocate for “The People”, an observer, a Musician, a Teaching Artist, and a HUGE fan of Duran Duran… and yes BLM ✊🏾

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